Living Between Earth and Sky

Posted: September 9, 2014 in journal, Women, Writing
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“Excuse me while I kiss the sky.” Jimi Hendrix

 

Stillness, 2007, oil on canvas, 76x 101 cm-30x40

Stillness, 2007, oil on canvas, 76x 101 cm-30×40

 

An Aside to the Story.

 

When I awoke this morning, there was a different feel to the wind rustling the trees, a high west wind. The barometer was low and dark clouds hugged the surrounding mountains moving swiftly to their Easterly destination, perhaps to cause havoc in Texas and Oklahoma.

Today was my first day off where I did not have something else to do, a leisurely day, conversation over breakfast with my husband, a few chores to be accomplished, and perhaps finish another Paper Play piece I started but never finished. All the pieces lay on the drawing table, waiting for me, calling to me…..

Work has taken up all my time, physically and emotionally. In addition, I am having to learn to deal with a reverse set of circumstances. In my old salve job at Home Depot working in returns and customer service, it was the customers who thought I was rude, always yelling at me thereby making management yell at me. After a year and a half, I got tired of people yelling at me so I quit. The only people I did get along with were my fellow slaves.

Now a new job, as a guest services representative with the Air Force Inns, part of the US Air Force lodging support group, and I love it! It has now been nearly 8 weeks of intensive training and 40 hour weeks of what was supposed to have been a part-time job. Here, management and the guests think I am great, but my fellow employees all think I am rude.

In this short time I have been called into the office 6 times, roughly once a week because one of the girls has complained about something I said that offended her. I sigh a lot, not knowing how to talk any kinder or gentler, having done my best to integrate myself into their conversations and every day chatter during the quite times, only to be slight shunned and ignored. Now, I have found that the only solution, to prevent situations from arising again is to keep my mouth shut, which has isolated me even more. My husband commented that perhaps all of my co-workers are Home Depot customers! That made me laugh at the irony of it all.

I think Kermit, said it best: “It is not east being green.” That really explains it all for being different is truly a burden at times, a blessing at others, consistently keeping life an amusing, sometimes aggravating challenge.

I have always said, for as long as I can remember, that as an artist I existed in a realm between earth and sky. I have found these last 5 years or so working in the real world difficult at best. (Thank you George Bush for doing what you did and giving me this opportunity. Said sarcastically of course.) However, I have come to the conclusion that I cannot re-emerge into the real world as an ordinary persona, simply because the greater part of myself still exists in the in-between world where everything is clear and all your senses are quite attuned to everything.

Take that and add it to my empathic ability and people who are even just a little aware know I can see right though them and the others just are a bit blinded by the bright light.

Go buy some sunglasses world; I plan to be around for a while, so you might as well get use to me as I kiss the sky.

 

 

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